Sister from another Mother

Today's my Ate Angela's birthday :) wala kasi akong kapatid na babae, so nung nagdorm ako, nagkaron ako ng madaming kapatid na babae. HAHA

Anywaaaaay. Happy happy birthday to my sister from another mother. I wish you all the happiness in life. PS. Good luck sa pageant mo. Kick some ass! HAHAHA you can do it. Sorry, hanggang dito lang ako makasuporta sa'yo :D I love you ate. And I miss you! I miss our gimik, gala and chikahan days. And also our one-on-one. HAHAHA if you know what I mean. Always take care of yourself. :*

xoxo

Update

Sorry pero hindi pa talaga ako maguupdate. Hahaha! Tomorrow's my off, so Promise. Bukas talaga.

xoxo

Happy na, Birthday pa! :)

Today is the day! Haha

2 of my friends were born on this day! :) Happy happy. First time kong umeffort at magcollage ng picture para sa friend. Usually kasi ginagawa ko lang yun sa boyfriend. HAHAHA ganun ako ka-sweet na kaibigan. Anyway, I want to greet them here.

Happy birthday to my paks, bex, sa aking subordinate. Charot! Hahaha Mahal kita kahit lagi kita pinapaiyak at inaaway. I super miss you Allie!! Kitakits soon!! :)

And lastly, to my boy friend :) Michael. You're like my kuya na. Haha kasi lagi mo ko sinsermonan e. Lagi kang galit :)) Thank you! Sana ganyan ka lang lagi at hindi magsasawa sa kakasermon sa akin. Haha. I love you! Miss you. Libre mo ko ahh? :))

xoxo

It's about time..

It's about time na mag update na ako ng blog ko. HAHAHA

But I got nothing to write yet.

So hello lang :)))

xoxo

I want to meet someone. Someone who'll love me more than I love him. Someone who will do everything and anything just to make me happy. Someone who'll take the risk. Someone who'll accept and understand me for who I am and who I am not. And if anytime soon, I meet this someone, I won't let him go, ever.

xoxo

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I am making this out of nowhere. I just want to release this tension I have for months now. First of all, I don't know if this thing I have with someone will last or not. Do you guys agree that long distance relationship could last? Personally I don't think so. Because right now, I have doubts about it.

I'm in this situation for 10mos now. As in today, March 28. You know, it's hard for me to hold on. It feels unfair. It feels like i'm the one who's always been surprising him in my own little ways. Feels like I was the only one who's been keeping our promises we made when he left.

I don't know. I'm confused and I think I'm tired. Exhausted of always being the one who's making an effort for our/this relationship to maintain the magic, spice or whatever you call it. He doesn't even make an effort to surprise me, or whatever. Though his presence is really what I need.

Once, I told a friend of what I really feel. And she said, "siguro you're not worth the effort" and I was like, "ouch, that hurts!" -- but hey. maybe she has a point. If my man thinks I'm worth it, he'll do anything. and I know he can do anything he wants to because I know him too well.

Sabi pa ng isang kaibigan ko, "makipagbreak ka na kasi hindi ka na masaya", I said "paano mo naman nasabi?", he replied "kasi naiinggit ka na sa ibang tao, hindi ka na masaya. hindi ka na natutuwa sa nangyayari sa inyo. at mali na naiinggit ka sa ibang tao". --- hmm. Makes sense. What can you say about that?

Anyway, I wrote this for the purpose of releasing my stress. And it sure did.

Update you guys on whatever's going to happen.


xoxo

Pre-valentine's Dilemma

Gusto kong paligayahin ang mga single diyan sa tabi-tabi. Huwag kayong mag-alala . Nandito ako para pasayahin at iparamdam sa inyong MAHAL KO KAYO :)

A lot of people often see this occasion as dapat you have a lover/partner to celebrate this day where in fact it’s just an ordinary day. Ni hindi ko nga maintindihan kung bakit nga ba may Valentine’s Day? Hindi ba dapat araw-araw nating ipinapadama sa mga taong mahal natin na mahal natin sila? Bakit ba may mga taong nalulungkot kapag month of February or Valentine’s Day? Dahil ang nasa isip ng halos lahat sa atin, wala kang karapatan magcelebrate kung wala kang boyfriend, or kahit manliligaw man lang na magaaya sayo ng date.

Hoy, excuse me! Mas maganda nga ang single ano. Imagine, hindi lang isa ang ka-date mo! Mahigit isang dosena pa! O diba, mas masaya ‘yon? At isa pa, hindi natin kailangang maging malungkot sa araw na ito. Hindi lang naman mga rosas o tsokolate ang nakapagbibigay saya sa araw na ‘to. Oo, aminin natin na masaya talaga kapag nakakatanggap ka ng mga ganitong bagay. Pero mas masaya, lalo na’t kung nararamdaman mong maraming nagmamahal sayo, hindi lang isa :) 

Baka naman isipin niyo na bitter ako. Hahaha! Hindi po. ‘wag din sanang magalit ang mga may boyfriend/girlfriend diyan, bilang may boyfriend din naman ako. Gusto ko lang damayan ang mga taong naglulungkut-lungkutan diyan. Dahil ako mismo, hindi makakapagcelebrate niyan dahil nasa malayong malayong lugar siya ngayon. But it really doesn’t matter. February 14 is just a date. Marami pang February 14 ang darating sa buhay natin ‘no. Matagal pa tayong mabubuhay e ;) Gusto ko lang isiksik diyan sa mga kukote niyo (pati sa kukote ko) na pwede parin kayo lumabas o makipag date sa kung kanino niyo gusto. Yung alam niyong sasaya kayo sa araw na yun at mararamdaman niyong may nagmamahal sa inyo. Alam niyo ba kung sino ang BEST date na makakasama niyo sa Valentine’s Day? Your own family :) or kung hindi naman, friends. I’m sure madami kayong circle of friends.

Hindi naman tayo dapat nagmamadali sa pag-ibig. Darating din yan, sa tamang oras, tamang panahon at sa tamang tao. Pagdasal niyo, and really, it works! Mag enjoy muna kayo at gawin ang mga bagay na gusto niyong gawin sa buhay. Malay niyo, sa pag-eexplore niyo dun niyo na pala makikilala ang taong nakatakda para sa inyo. :)

And please... wag nang emo ha? Enjoy lang. Keber natin sa mga mag jowang magcecelbrate. Tayo nalang mag date ;) :* Happy Valentine's Day!!

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Hello! Wala lang. I'm in the mood to write/type eh. #conyoproblems :))

Today is January 24, 2012. It was my second day in Red Cross Laguna chapter in Sta. Cruz Laguna, where I enrolled for Basic Life Support and First Aid training course. It was fun kahit nakakapagod. At least it's my way narin to not think about "things". Anyway, fun kasi I have new found friends. Thanks to Ms. Jhoan, bilang kaibigan niya yung mga new found friends ko. Haha! Hindi na ako loner. Yay! Oh and by the way, I hope you don't mind reading a taglish blog. I'm not good in expressing myself in English, although I know I should start to learn now how. Kaya nga, yung iba english, yung iba tagalog.

Back to what I'm saying... :)
Ayun, masaya lang. This is a 6-day training. And I'm searching/looking for my next agenda. Para hindi naman ako nabubulok dito sa bahay :) And luckily, I found one. God is just good to me. I'm ready for whatever challenges this opportunity might give me. Hoping and praying that everything goes well smoothly.

#excited :)

Friends for keeps

I posted a blog a while ago, pero gusto ko na ulit mag post ng bago.

Yes, it’s true. Ayokong may makaalam ng breakup namin. But on second thought, your friends will help you all throughout the moving on process. So there, I’ve decided to tell them at hindi ako nagsisi. But for now, etong tatlong magagandang dilag ang nagpagaan ng loob ko.

(From top to bottom: Reveleen Carandang, Sally Laserna, Jhoan Herbosa)

These three amazing people are just SOME of my friends. Again, thank you girls!

xoxo

Right person at the wrong time

I don't believe in this until I experienced it myself. 

By just looking at the title, you must have figured out what this blog is all about. And I want to share this with you guys because I know, in some way or another, you can pick some lessons from my experience.

2 days ago, I broke up with my 2 years and 5 months boyfriend. We were in a long distance relationship for 8 months. Before he left, I was thinking whether our relationship would work out or not. But because I love him that much, I tried my best to keep our relationship strong. I know he tried too. It's just that there are some things that need to be done.

Honestly, I don't know what I am thinking when I said I can't do this anymore. He's just the perfect man for me. What I really love about him is that I can see that he will be a good father. Pasensya na, exagge ako mag-isip. Nakita ko kasi kung paano niya alagaan yung mga pamangkin niya :) And as I have said, I loved him so much, so much that I let my world revolved around him. It's not that I blame him for what I did, and what I did not. I realized that I have my own life too. Kakaisip ko kung paano ko siya makakasama, hindi ko na naisip yung mga gusto ko pang gawin sa buhay. 

Every relationship has issues. And we have our own issue. As in, pag wala 'to, balewala ang lahat kahit gaano mo pa siya kamahal. I know I've been so hard on him. Feeling ko nasasakal ko na siya, na hindi na kami healthy. And I know, deep inside of me, hindi ako 'to. I'm not the type of girlfriend na dindeprive ang boyfriend. And that's when I thought, this wouldn't workout. 

Now, the hardest part is.. MOVING ON. I don't even know how to move on knowing that he's not mine anymore. It's just that we've shared and experienced a lot of things. Believe me or not, out of all my breakups, I'm pretty sure that this time I will need a lot of time to move on. I hibernated from Facebook and Twitter because I don't want anyone to know (even my friends) that we didn't work out.

I know that the decision I've made will benefit both of us. The best thing about our breakup is that we had a chance to talk, and at least there's good in goodbye. Sana kapag okay na ako, pwede parin siyang maging sa akin.

Lesson is: Love is not enough, you have to consider a lot of things for the relationship to work out.

Soon, I'll share this to everybody. That's when I'm okay and moved on.

Cheers to a better ME! :)

Newbie

Hello! Over the past months, I've been thinking of creating my own blog. I am encouraged to have my own because of wala lang, trip ko lang. Also, I have a cousin who really loves to blog. (Shoutout to Ms. Celina Mae ;)) And since it's my first time, I would like to introduce myself first :)

I am Renee Izel Ortiz Lapitan, 21 years old. I am a Registered Nurse graduated from Capitol Medical Center Colleges in Quezon City. I am the 2nd child and the only daughter of Renato and Audrey Lapitan. I have three brothers namely Ren Martin, Renaud Jan and Renzo Luis. 

Kung hindi ako nag Nursing, malamang hindi pa ako Nurse ngayon. lol! Siguro Hotel and Restaurant Management yung kinuha ko because I have this passion in cooking :) I also love to sing and dance but I think I'm more of a dancer than a singer. I am shy at first but very friendly and jolly person when you get to know me better. I am not snob but people always think I am. I always want to laugh because everything gets better when you get a good laugh.

Well, that's it. I couldn't think of anything to write here now. Haha

xoxo