I want to meet someone. Someone who'll love me more than I love him. Someone who will do everything and anything just to make me happy. Someone who'll take the risk. Someone who'll accept and understand me for who I am and who I am not. And if anytime soon, I meet this someone, I won't let him go, ever.
xoxo
Wednesday, 28 March 2012
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I am making this out of nowhere. I just want to release this tension I have for months now. First of all, I don't know if this thing I have with someone will last or not. Do you guys agree that long distance relationship could last? Personally I don't think so. Because right now, I have doubts about it.
I'm in this situation for 10mos now. As in today, March 28. You know, it's hard for me to hold on. It feels unfair. It feels like i'm the one who's always been surprising him in my own little ways. Feels like I was the only one who's been keeping our promises we made when he left.
I don't know. I'm confused and I think I'm tired. Exhausted of always being the one who's making an effort for our/this relationship to maintain the magic, spice or whatever you call it. He doesn't even make an effort to surprise me, or whatever. Though his presence is really what I need.
Once, I told a friend of what I really feel. And she said, "siguro you're not worth the effort" and I was like, "ouch, that hurts!" -- but hey. maybe she has a point. If my man thinks I'm worth it, he'll do anything. and I know he can do anything he wants to because I know him too well.
Sabi pa ng isang kaibigan ko, "makipagbreak ka na kasi hindi ka na masaya", I said "paano mo naman nasabi?", he replied "kasi naiinggit ka na sa ibang tao, hindi ka na masaya. hindi ka na natutuwa sa nangyayari sa inyo. at mali na naiinggit ka sa ibang tao". --- hmm. Makes sense. What can you say about that?
Anyway, I wrote this for the purpose of releasing my stress. And it sure did.
Update you guys on whatever's going to happen.
xoxo
I'm in this situation for 10mos now. As in today, March 28. You know, it's hard for me to hold on. It feels unfair. It feels like i'm the one who's always been surprising him in my own little ways. Feels like I was the only one who's been keeping our promises we made when he left.
I don't know. I'm confused and I think I'm tired. Exhausted of always being the one who's making an effort for our/this relationship to maintain the magic, spice or whatever you call it. He doesn't even make an effort to surprise me, or whatever. Though his presence is really what I need.
Once, I told a friend of what I really feel. And she said, "siguro you're not worth the effort" and I was like, "ouch, that hurts!" -- but hey. maybe she has a point. If my man thinks I'm worth it, he'll do anything. and I know he can do anything he wants to because I know him too well.
Sabi pa ng isang kaibigan ko, "makipagbreak ka na kasi hindi ka na masaya", I said "paano mo naman nasabi?", he replied "kasi naiinggit ka na sa ibang tao, hindi ka na masaya. hindi ka na natutuwa sa nangyayari sa inyo. at mali na naiinggit ka sa ibang tao". --- hmm. Makes sense. What can you say about that?
Anyway, I wrote this for the purpose of releasing my stress. And it sure did.
Update you guys on whatever's going to happen.
xoxo
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